Dreams

Dreams are what keep you going each and everyday. When someone tells you you can't, your dreams are there to catch you. When ever you feel discouraged, your dreams are in the back of your mind pushing you to keep going and try harder. Dreams are there through-out your whole entire life, no matter how old you get, you can ALWAYS have a dream! Your dreams are yours, and yours alone. No one can have the same exact one, some little detail will always be different. So whenever you feel like you have nothing, remember, you've always got your dreams...

Happy Birthday to him...

   Today has been a rough day... As much as I don't want to miss him, I do... I still love him and I know a part of me always will. It's especially hard that I saw his mom driving today and knowing me and his family don't get along... Hard knowing his sister is hurting and I can't say anything to her because she hates me for the fights between myself and her mom... Hard wondering where we would be if he hadn't made the choices he made... Hard not being able to tell him Happy Birthday... Hard not being able to get closure... Hard to move on... Hard to let go... Hard to not cry... Hard to say goodbye... So many truly hard things I never thought I'd have to go through in my life.

   They moved his court again. It was supposed to be today and tomorrow, but now it's in December. Not sure if I'll be able to make it then since it's when my niece is due.

   People ask me all the time why I want to go to his court dates... I want to hear for myself what, if anything he says, and to hear first hand what is happening. I don't wanna hear about it on the news or in the newspaper. I don't wanna be blindsided by anything else I have to learn from the media...

  With that being said, I'm going to bed. It's been an emotionally, and physically draining day. Thanks for reading.

Sincerely,
Amber.