How One Song Changed Everything...

 As most people who know me know, on February 26, 2013 my husband of 7 1/2 months was arrested for robbing multiple banks. I thought that my life was over. But somehow I made it through.
 The past year and a half has been a major struggle with depression and self hatred. In December I had a bit of a break down.
 It was right before Christmas and as much as I didn't want to, I was missing my ex-husband. I felt like no matter how hard I worked at my job I wasn't going anywhere. I also felt like I wasn't going anywhere in life. My family was also starting the adoption process for my foster brother and I knew there was a chance his birth mom would still end up getting him back. (She did because of our stupid supreme court, but that's a story for another time.)
 So in December my mind started going to a very dark place. Thinking of ending it all. Thinking my family and friends would be better off if I wasn't around to drag them down. Also every negative thing my ex-husband ever said to me kept ringing in my head. I was very close to giving up.
 Then one day I was on a social media site and saw a link, this link https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wkc6QgjbYyI. The song was a Wrecking Ball cover, the band, Our Last Night. I instantly fell in love with them and started listening to all their songs on YouTube. Then I came upon a song that had such a profound effect on me, that I never knew music could affect a person that much. (And yes I've had music affect me pretty heavily before, but never like this.)
 The song was Sunrise. https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XlScrMv7Pd8. And while it is a song about anti-bullying, it's very much a suicide prevention song. While listening to this song I broke down! I let everything pour out of me inside my tears. And after the song was over, I felt at peace! I finally realized I had to keep moving on and that I needed to make the most out of my life by living it to the fullest!
 Now I share this song every chance I get. I show it to anyone and everyone who will listen to it! And I plan on going to schools and start talking about bullying and suicide prevention. And I will use this song in my talk.
 Today, even though I'm going through the hardest time in my life, even harder than when my husband was arrested, I listen to this song to keep going. I know I can always "Make It To The Sunrise" no matter how hard it gets.
 I ask all of you reading this, to please check out this song and share it so others who are needing it can hear it. And that could possibly save a life!
 And if by some miracle Trevor, Matt, Woody, or Tim are reading this. Thank you. You will never understand the level of gratitude I feel. You guys are amazing! I love you all! Haha.

Thanks for reading everyone. I love you. Please remember, "You can make it to the sunrise!"

Love,
Amber